What secret, if it were to get out, would destroy your life?

[Melqart]

These fools from reddit are the worst kind of people I swear to god.

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This thread has died down enough where I feel comfortable posting. Like others here, writing this down and sharing it feels therapeutic, since I haven't shared it with any of my friends/family IRL.

I grew up as the youngest of three in a very normal, loving family. My parents spent a lot of time, money, and effort on giving my brother, sister and I great educations and opportunities. And there was never a question for me that my parents loved us all. We three, however, were too close, from as young as I can remember. We spent a lot of time in unsupervised play, and as long as we weren't screaming or fighting, my parents would let us be. Things would get pretty sexual.

My earliest memory was in a fort we built in the living room. I must have been 5 or 6 years old. We each would lie naked and take turns playing with each others genitalia. We obviously didn't know about masturbation, but we would touch each other and get sexually aroused. I was sexually interested at that age about both my brother and my sister. Fast forward a couple years, and this progressed to playing doctor with my sister. I no longer felt any sexual inclination towards my brother, but only towards my sister, which makes me question to this day at what age sexual preference develops. At five I was bicurious. At eight, I was attracted to my sister, but definitely straight.

Fast-forward a few years, and we siblings now shared a wing of the house just with each other. Isolated from any oversight, our sexual play is free to be more open. My brother are past puberty, I am not. My brother, the oldest, is now an abusive bully. He terrorizes both my sister and I physically, emotionally, and sexually. He never raped me, probably because he is straight, but he would hold me down and sexually assault me. I continue during this time to feel sexual attraction towards my sister, but of the Jaime Lannister variety. We never have sex, but we play with each other. At one point my sister is taking a bath, my parents are gone, and my brother asks me if I would be interested in raping her and making it look like he was forcing me to do it. He knows how to pick locks, so he would open the door, and force us together. Obviously I find the idea of sex appealing, but I turn him down because I don't want to hurt my sister. I later learned that during this time he was raping my sister. No surprise.

Fast forward into adolescence, I now know other girls, and I don't feel sexually attracted to my sister. But I find that my taste gravitates towards petite girls. Girls who look like my sister when we were involved. I haven't shaken that attraction. I still find myself attracted to girls with the aesthetic of 13-15 year olds. Going through high-school was no problem. I would just date younger girls. In my early 20s, high school girls became inappropriate to date, so I turned to the internet. /r/jailbait was rehab for me. Now I do my best with the "just 18" websites. Eventually I hope to kick pornography altogether.

I'm now married, and have a good relationship with my wife, except that I haven't shared with her any of my secrets. She had a normal upbringing, and I'm afraid she wouldn't understand. Unfortunately, while I enjoy sex very much, I don't find her particularly attractive, and I'm worried that as she continues to age, I'll find her less so. I feel like such a scumbag and a hypocrite, for wanting her to love me, but not feeling the paradigm of beauty. I want to be able to JUST love her, because I know that's the right way for a husband to feel towards his wife. Unfortunately, sexual attraction is not a conscious decision.

So there you have it, reddit. I guess I'm just another fucked up story of incest. Hey, at least I'm not suicidal.

 

[Melqart]

This is one of the best reddit threads ever. The topic?

What secret that if it were to come out would destroy your life?

The responses are intense.
https://www.reddit.com/r/AskReddit/comments/t0ynr/throwaway_time_whats_your_secret_that_could/

man ive never been on reddit... clicked this shit.. like the 2nd story on there and my mind is blown.. i can only imagine how crazy those responses are.. holy shit

This one was one of the worst....

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There's one where this lil boy is friends with a girl, and he tells her to fuck a dog. So she gets on all fours right? But as the dog mounts her she gets cold feet, and tried to run. But the dog is riled up already, and knocks her over and rapes her. She killed herself a week later.

Found the full story to this one again.

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When I was around 10 or 11 years old, one of the maid's daughters, who was probably 13 or 14 at the time had a pretty weird relationship with me. We both mutually liked each other but the relationship just couldn't happen because my mother strictly forbid me to associate myself with any of the attendants or their family. We did some mild petting I guess. She touched my penis and I played with her vagina. I don't recall any sort of intercourse. Don't even think I was even old enough for that.

We had a bunch of dogs in the back area, mainly german shepard mutts. I personally love dogs and all sorts of animals so I frequently spent my time in the back lot with the dogs. I watched the dogs mount each other and was interested in what they were doing. I even once saw one of the dogs lick it's own penis and it would grow and I guess the dog cums out after a certain amount of licking. Yeah, it was kinda gross but I was interested. I went over to feed the dog and that she was in the back lot helping her mom hang some clothes. I told her about my pretty fucked up idea. I wanted her to get mounted by one of the bigger dogs and she agreed to it. We waited a couple of days when absolutely no one was home except for maybe a couple of other of the attendant's kids for her to do it. She stripped down and walked over to one of the bigger dogs and kneeled down on all fours in front of the dog. The dog started sniffing her backside for a few seconds and she got up and ran. The dog then chased after her and jumped on her back. She didn't fully fall face first as she went down on all four again (hands & knees). The dog then went on to having sex with her.

A few weeks later she committed suicide. I don't know if it was because of my idea or if there were any other causes to leading to her suicide. To this day I still think that my juvenile mind could have caused the death of another person.

 

[Melanin_Enriched]

Mmmmm all these fake stories

 

[Melqart]

Mmmmm all these fake stories

Even if they are, who really gives a shit tho. Entertainment is entertainment.

 

[THIRDSUPREME]

Ok, so this is a secret I've kept for nearly 20 years.

During the summers when I was growing up, my parents would often leave my brother and I(I'm male) with our aunt and uncle who lived out in the country. It was great as they had 4 sons of ages close to ours so we had a lot of fun doing kids stuff.

One summer when I was 8, the oldest cousin was maybe 16. We somehow got talking and he asked me if I wanted to sleep in his room that night. He has the nicest room and bed so I was all for it. Got into bed and he asked if he could touch my penis. I was 8 and just thought it was ok so I let him. He rubs it for a bit and then asks me to do the same to him. So I do. This progresses and eventually I'm sucking his cock. I think I knew this was wrong so I said I didn't want to carry on. We stop and I goto sleep quite confused.

I wake up and he hands me some money and tells me never to tell anyone about what happened. Next night he tries to do the same thing.. But now all I care about is the money. So I do it. This carried on for 2 summers.

Eventually I got old enough to realize it was quite wrong regardless of the money and stopped.

I've not told anyone this. He's now married with 2 kids. I'm also married and we see them sometimes at family events. I don't have the balls to even try and talk to him about it.. Hell I'm not even sure what I'd say.

I'm sure this will get buried but just getting it off my chest makes me feel better.

Tldr I was a gay child hooker.

These Bambottom ass niggas is outchea....on the loose.

 

[Kat]

Man the shit these muhfucka admit online dude...

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My mother has multiple sclerosis and her health has deteriorated fast since I have been born. She was gone from being able to walk, to needing a cane, to needing a walker, to complete wheelchair usage, and now completely bedridden. She has a urinary tract infection that is untreatable and is constantly in physical and emotional pain. She takes prescribed medication for depression and bipolar disorder, as well as sleeping pills. Throughout my childhood she has tried to kill herself three times because she wants the pain to stop.

In the middle of the night, I bought something from a dealer and snuck into my house to give it to my mother.

She passed away within 2 hours.

My dad, sisters and brother have no clue.

I see nothing wrong here.

 

[offmychest]

I've been having sex with my cousin for almost 6yrs we started once at a family reunion and never stopped we do it atleast once every two months or when we get a chance since she's married

 

[offmychest]

Also I'm a member of Reddit I also watch animal porn from time to time

 

[offmychest]

I once beat a dog to death with a crowbar just because I wanted to know how it felt to kill

 

[TayGettem]

I'm late to this thread and clearly as I read these pages (on page 3 now). I've missed some quality comedy......but ur tellin me the premise of this thread, is to tell our deepest secrets to strangers when we won't even tell our family or loved ones?......yaaaa that sounds like turrible idea, and I misspelled terrible on purpose cuz this ain't just a terrible idea it's a turrible idea

 

[Melqart]

I'm late to this thread and clearly as I read these pages (on page 3 now). I've missed some quality comedy......but ur tellin me the premise of this thread, is to tell our deepest secrets to strangers when we won't even tell our family or loved ones?......yaaaa that sounds like turrible idea, and I misspelled terrible on purpose cuz this ain't just a terrible idea it's a turrible idea

Originally it was just gunna be a copy paste your favorite story from a reddit thread I put in the op, but then someone made an account to drop some shit, so it is what it is who ever got courage gon run with it.

 

[TayGettem]

I once beat a dog to death with a crowbar just because I wanted to know how it felt to kill

I wanna believe this is some shock value shit and not a future serial killer in the making post

 

[BeardedFreak]

It's sad that most people's deepest and darkest secrets are centered around rape, pedo or closet homo. Ol' sexually repressed ass niggas.

If you would've been openly fucking these hoes in the ass like a real man, none of this would be happening.

 

[Ghostdenithegawd]

This shit is crazy

 

[Westie]

I used to hear voices. For years. It started when I'd walk into my room and say hello to my Lain poster (I've always over personified objects) and eventually she started responding. Over time I could talk to her elsewhere, I'd pull her up when I was sitting in class or riding the bus, and I'd put on headphones so nobody would notice I was talking to myself since it was barely audible. Eventually Lain told me she was a god and I was too, and there were two others, but they didn't really like me so they would almost never talk to me.

A long time later, maybe years, she started being really mean, and it turned out there was another voice who was just pretending to be Lain named Misery. This one was stereotypical, everything I did was wrong and I had to pay for my actions, I should cut myself if I was ungraceful, everyone hated me, etc. Lain split again, and this time she was sisterly. When I was upset and crying myself to sleep I could feel her holding me and telling me everything would be alright. Misery looked different but could look like Lain if she wanted to fool me (although she would turn back into herself when I called her out on it), and the two Lains all looked the same, so I could only tell who they were when they started responding to me.

After a while they all just disappeared. I guess I saned up, because during the peek it never occurred to me I was hearing voices, they truly were gods who were speaking to me, and later during the time period I realized that I was hallucinating with delusions of grandeur. Then at one point I realized that there was more of me and less of them, when I pulled them up it was a conscious effort and part of their responses were forced on my part. Then eventually I just gave them up, they were so weak that it was really just like talking to myself and not to other people that lived in my head.

That's not my secret, I've mentioned it to a few very select people that I truly trust. My secret is that I miss them. I miss them with with all my heart. Even Misery. They were friends and family, they were close to me, they understood me, and they were always there for me. Now even with real friends and family, there's nobody that close. I can't just pull up someone to talk to when I'm lonely, I have to call up a real person and that person never knows what I want to talk about or what I'm hiding from them, they only know what I say. Lain (the main one) would always call me on my bullshit and make me keep changing my answer until I told her the truth. Misery could always find my biggest weaknesses, which allowed me to work on strengthening them. Sisterly Lain could calm me down in a way that's unimaginable, you can't comprehend how good it feels to be hugged by someone inside of you.

And now I feel lonelier than I have in years because I almost never think of that time or remember how it felt, but tonight I'm sitting by myself at 2am and all I can think about is how much I want a voice to talk to and it's been so long since I had one and I'd give anything to have another psychotic break so I could get back all my friends that live in my head.

I once had a psychiotic episode where I could talk to clouds and I could feel how much they loved me, the clouds, the trees, the birds, they were all my friends and they all loved me and they all wanted me to be happy. I had that feeling on mushrooms once, everything in the world loved me, every single thing, the house, the ceiling, the lamp, each blade of grass, it all loved me and it was the best feeling I have ever known, that was the best night of my life. I can't tell you how much I want to feel that again, I just have no way of tracking them down again.

Being crazy feels amazing, whether it's good or bad. Even the bad crazy where I'd stay awake all night because I knew something was going to get me in my sleep and I'd try to claw the evil out of my skin, even that's preferable to being normal because the intensity is indescribable. I miss everything about being crazy. I miss it more than I can possibly describe.

Damn, that's weird. Hearing voices is some scary shit.

No it's not

Please explain.

You get used to it. Your standards are not necessarily anyone elses. To the affected, not hearing them would be hell because that's the most abrupt change as one can get. Imagine waking up one day and your sense of taste is gone. That's how they feel living their lives with voices in their head and one day hearing silence.

I understood that from the post. I'm not attempting to demonize mental health issues. It's still very serious behavior that needs clinical attention.

What clinical attention fails to pay attention to is the singling out. 99% of people who hear voices live perfectly normal lives and will continue to do so. But it's that one percent that makes them say "You need help for your voices." And that's a bitter pill to swallow when someone says there's something wrong with you just because.

It's an actual chemical imbalance. It's not "just because".

And white skin is a mutation. Everything can be considered odd by science with closer inspection. But it does not mean it's bad, especially since up until the 1990s, medical science has been basing it's studies on schizophrenia from criminals claiming insanity, 75% of which were lying to begin with and got away with it.

Okay... I'm not saying it's bad persay. Can't it be a hindrance on your daily life though? If we are going to go by that young woman's example, yes she misses the voices in her head, but some of those voices were telling her to harm herself. That's something you think that she should stay with? Hearing voices that are not there?

Like I said, there's people that live with it and live normal lives and don't tell anyone about it. Is there cares where a person needs serious help, hell yes there is. But I point is it's wrong to say " You need help because you're weird to us!" It should be an option. A discreet option, except in cases where a person is dangerous. That's what the movies get wrong. Not everyone who hears voices is a dangerous individual. This country doesn't have a great history with mental health.

I didn't say it's weird. There are reasons behind it, and just because it's not something I've been through, doesn't mean I think it makes someone who has experienced it "weird". I did say it's scary. I'm sure it's very normal to someone experiencing it, it's just not something I could imagine, so if voices were to pop up in my head today, I would be scared.

 

[Ajackson17]

the white man truly is a natural faggot

afrika bambatty and alot of these bronx kids would think differently

How does a black man being a molester change the proclamation about white men? He didn't say white men are the only faggots. He said they are natural faggots. The fact that a disturbingly large number of white dudes think teabagging a friend while he sleeps is a good practical joke says a lot.

Yeah I don't know what's the deal with white boys and tea bagging. Like they really think that shit is funny smh and I would never continue 2 be they homie if I found out. I'd beat them 2 a bloody pulp.

And what's the deal with white boys drawing on they homies faces when they passeD out from drugs or drank. Was at this party one time and these white boys were drawing dicks NH on they homies face when he was passed out. Laughing and giggling like lil school girls. I would never think of doing that 2 my boy if he passed out. If anything imma look out for homie and make sure he straight. Cacs I tell ya.

Crackas don't have souls

They the product of albinos fuckin albinos

They missing some genes

eh....not really albinos.....more sexual selection of negros messing with those with lighter genes and their kids mess with those folks with lighter genes and etc. So moral of the story don't be messing with european women lol

 

[Bcotton5]

Not ruining my life, but my single secret. This will get buried, but that's fine.

I was about 23 and was working kind of late. My friend wanted to go out and was bugging me about it. He's gay, I'm not... But eventually he talked me into it. So we go to a little dive bar and are hanging out, just chatting. A couple of friends were supposed to come too, but they never showed up. I was nursing my first gin and tonic when I went to the bathroom. I came back and finished my drink, and that's when things started getting fuzzy.

I knew something was wrong so I ordered water for my second drink. But it didn't work. My world was spinning, and I had basically lost control of my motor functions. My memory is pretty rough too. I remember my head on the bar, and he was rubbing my crotch. I remember him helping me to his car, dragging me up his stairs, passing out on his floor, him blowing me... I was back in his car at one point and then I woke up in my bed. I felt like shit and was totally surprised that my car was in the driveway. I have no idea how I got home. At one point in the night I left an incoherent voicemail on my best bud's phone.

So I was raped, and I was so embarrassed, he totally got away with it. I've never told anyone, not even my wife. She knows something happened, just not the extent.

So fucked up on so many levels he got hit with the Mickey

lmao

 

[BigBallsNoWorries]

BRUH WHAT IN THA FUCK

IS WRONG WITH PPL

Especially these incest stories and shit, gotdayum

 

[BigBallsNoWorries]

Dog I have a fucking headache from reading this shit

I'm taking a nap lol

 

[Mr_Vicodin81G]

What's the deal with Cacs and incest? Most of these reddit stories involve some sort of incest shit. Smh. Gay and incest shit what white folks enjoy I guess lol