To all my nice guys:
Never sacrifice your integrity for the sake of getting laid. You can become so caught up in this game that you'll eventually forget who you really are. At one point I started to blame myself, thought I was a pushover, I started to mistake being an asshole for my masculine energy. I didn't lie to females, wasn't a player, rarely into the superficial BS, was on my grind, etc. In my attempt to adopt a persona that wasn't me I changed my style of dress, lost interest in some of my hobbies (science fiction novels, sketching, eastern philosophy, drum and bass music) and traded it in for a cool pose that I thought would land me in the "in" crowd. Sure enough I started to get laid. Bitches gravitated to my vanity. Set up a date dont show up... BAM! that bitch is chasing me harder. Start an argument for no fucking reason.... BAM! that bitch is turned on... it turned me into someone I didn't want to be. Got involved with people I shouldn't have got involved with. Got into some real deep shit. One day it finally dawned on me that I was so far gone from what I used to be that I didn't even recognize myself and it disgusted me...... I gradually started cutting people off, and coming back to my senses. I made a pact with myself to never loose the essence of who I was no matter what. And fuck society if they shunned me for it. Yes the genuine nice guy does exist, but we live in an era where people want a perception of coolness rather than a HUMAN BEING. The narcissistic generation driven by whatevers popular. FUCK EM.
