this is dangerously close to being moved to race and religion..but i'll just say this and got back to watching mission impossible 3...
for a few years i'm not going to say i was a 100% atheist... but i lost all faith in man... i just felt man was too stupid as a whole to be trusted on anything..especially religion...the fact that man has been proven wrong on so many things in the history of man...and constantly "discovers" new things... to have faith that they got God, and Christ, and the entire concept of Christianity right on the first time around was borderline foolish...
not to mention all the wars and bloodshed and ironically un-Christian like behavior demonstrated in the spread of Christianity...religion as a whole was just a turn off for me....I felt like if God was real...he'd be pissed that this is how man chose to worship him...infact... he might not even care to be worshiped at all... he prollly looks at us all like we some dummies...
then i came across this essay by Bertrand Russell entitled "WHy I am not a Christian" and that shit just fucked with my head for a good while
i don't think it was a coincidence that i was a heavy weed smoker at the time....
then..after I had some pretty rough and humbling life experiences.. my perspective kinda started changing....I start finding more appreciation for things like love, peace and happiness....I developed a passion for those things, and I started realizing that these were core things that were taught in Christianity...regardless what the pastor may say, or what people on facebook, and ignorant fools who just want a cause to run with...ultimately..at it's core.. Christianity was way of living that promoted, peace, love and happiness....there were tons of other things int here too.. but nothing in the bible, or in the religion itself is actually bad... it's not a terrible lifestyle to choose to abide by....
I just think far too many people who have ulterior motives are often dubbed the representatives of it......
then one day when i was really really high.. i started thinking...."well what if God is real, would he give us signs of it?"
then i started thinking of all the shit i've been through, just reflecting....started talking with my moms a little.....started reading the bible a little more... then i found myself going to bible college at my church...where our pastor was breaking down certain stories in the bible, and teaching us how to break down sermons.....
after a few months of that....i started going back to church.. and i just feel i have a new sense of understanding of things....
i understand theres people who going to feel a certain way about church whether it's for it or against it.. but i don't think it's my role to try to persuade them by belittling them.. i think that's the absolute least effective way of making anyone understand your way of looking at things... that's why i be tripping off of gung -ho Christians, and atheist alike....people stay over doing shit...
just live your life the way that makes you happy, everybody can't be preached to...sometimes they gotta see the God in you to believe....you can't go around tryna force people in to thinking your way...
that's why theirs so much friction...people stay trying to prove their point by making someone else feel stupid...or trying to make themselves feel superior...
I just do what makes me happy.....and i do find that church, the bible, and being a Christian is teaching me how to preserve that happiness, and i work to be better at it, because I believe it's changing me into a better person for myself and for my family...
can't believe i just typed that much...
for a few years i'm not going to say i was a 100% atheist... but i lost all faith in man... i just felt man was too stupid as a whole to be trusted on anything..especially religion...the fact that man has been proven wrong on so many things in the history of man...and constantly "discovers" new things... to have faith that they got God, and Christ, and the entire concept of Christianity right on the first time around was borderline foolish...
not to mention all the wars and bloodshed and ironically un-Christian like behavior demonstrated in the spread of Christianity...religion as a whole was just a turn off for me....I felt like if God was real...he'd be pissed that this is how man chose to worship him...infact... he might not even care to be worshiped at all... he prollly looks at us all like we some dummies...
then i came across this essay by Bertrand Russell entitled "WHy I am not a Christian" and that shit just fucked with my head for a good while
i don't think it was a coincidence that i was a heavy weed smoker at the time....
then..after I had some pretty rough and humbling life experiences.. my perspective kinda started changing....I start finding more appreciation for things like love, peace and happiness....I developed a passion for those things, and I started realizing that these were core things that were taught in Christianity...regardless what the pastor may say, or what people on facebook, and ignorant fools who just want a cause to run with...ultimately..at it's core.. Christianity was way of living that promoted, peace, love and happiness....there were tons of other things int here too.. but nothing in the bible, or in the religion itself is actually bad... it's not a terrible lifestyle to choose to abide by....
I just think far too many people who have ulterior motives are often dubbed the representatives of it......
then one day when i was really really high.. i started thinking...."well what if God is real, would he give us signs of it?"
then i started thinking of all the shit i've been through, just reflecting....started talking with my moms a little.....started reading the bible a little more... then i found myself going to bible college at my church...where our pastor was breaking down certain stories in the bible, and teaching us how to break down sermons.....
after a few months of that....i started going back to church.. and i just feel i have a new sense of understanding of things....
i understand theres people who going to feel a certain way about church whether it's for it or against it.. but i don't think it's my role to try to persuade them by belittling them.. i think that's the absolute least effective way of making anyone understand your way of looking at things... that's why i be tripping off of gung -ho Christians, and atheist alike....people stay over doing shit...
just live your life the way that makes you happy, everybody can't be preached to...sometimes they gotta see the God in you to believe....you can't go around tryna force people in to thinking your way...
that's why theirs so much friction...people stay trying to prove their point by making someone else feel stupid...or trying to make themselves feel superior...
I just do what makes me happy.....and i do find that church, the bible, and being a Christian is teaching me how to preserve that happiness, and i work to be better at it, because I believe it's changing me into a better person for myself and for my family...
can't believe i just typed that much...