What's stoppin you?

[yellowtapesport]

I have no aspirations, at least not concrete objectives. I'm honestly just waiting to die. I know how 'emo' that sounds but I'm not depressed or suicidal (in a very bad mood sometimes, often, yes, and I may occasionally be fully depressed in future but I could only see myself being 'suicidal' in very few circumstances, like suffering from some brutal terminal illness). I just don't care about 'my life' anymore. I would have preferred not to have been brought into existence. If I was a middle aged man and no one who would be really devastated by my death was still alive and I had no dependents (that would include foster and adopted companion animals, which I plan on having) and I had a painless, foolproof method of suicide I would take it.

My aspirations are to have fun and experience pleasure and, if I can, help the people I care about (some humans and all non-human animals) to do the same and be free from suffering. I have always wanted to write children's fantasy/science fiction novels, and I will try to (even though it's almost guaranteed that I won't be successful), but doing it for money and having to alter my work to meet publishing standards (the idea that my work will be rejected as objectively bad instead of just 'not what we're looking for' also bothers me) is partly why the idea doesn't excite me like it used to. Besides that I like being around non-human animals and helping them in some way. What prevents me from doing more for them is primarily wanting to avoid human contact (which is completely selfish and hypocritical). I would also like to have casual sex (or even just make out/cuddle) with attractive women, ideally, what's preventing me from doing that is lack of money (to hire an escort) and if I was open to sex with non-escorts than my restless leg syndrome (I can't even fantasize about being with women and some other things without triggering it), being unattractive (body and face) and I honestly just don't really trust, feel close to or relate to most women, the fantasy doesn't really match the reality. Besides that; writing children's fiction, caring for non-human animals and having sex with desirable women, there's not really anymore more I want than to listen to good music, read/reply to interesting topics online, eat tasty (healthy/vegan) food, watch movies/tv shows and read comic books and novels. I used to be really interested in ethics, and I wish there were more ethics oriented topics on the IC, but I've mostly lost interest in even that, it seems pointless, very few, if any, people have the same attitude and view that I do. What's preventing me from getting a go to job is pragmatic social anxiety (having a degree would make that easier but I can't regret not finishing university because there was no other way things could be). An online or at home job is a must, it would be impossible to explain how shockingly bad going out in public and working with people everyday was to psychologically normal people. I would rather off myself than go through that again.

The world is boring and harsh, to me. You can't wrestle with everyone and human beings are predictably wicked (I'm not claiming to be the sole exception or denying that many, many, maybe even most, people are beyond decent and kind but considering past experience I can only think of very few among the many decent I could be almost certain will never turn). The way that most people think people and things must be, their values, are so completely boring to me. It just doesn't excite me. I could never be who I want to be with most people and it's inhibiting. There's no magic in the world and most people seem OK with that, it's only like that because it's what they accept.

Shit reads like a suicide note

 

[Kat]

Fight back against what?

She's not wrong but my point remains.

My daughter will be taught that nothing can stop her, nothing period. She will face obstacles and discrimination but fuck that shit...my baby can go as far as her dreams take her.

being black has a way of doing a number on dreams...

i dont expect you to understand now and you probably never will.

but thru your daughter, you will empathize.

I'm sure you're right, especially without a person in your corner encouraging you in the bleak times.

@Noir

I'm sorry if I came across as callous, it wasn't my intention.

 

[Mister B.]

Something's stopping me?

 

[Purr]

Fight back against what?

She's not wrong but my point remains.

My daughter will be taught that nothing can stop her, nothing period. She will face obstacles and discrimination but fuck that shit...my baby can go as far as her dreams take her.

Smh. See this is the issue.

Do you know why they do blind castings at opera houses, acting auditions, and dance troupes?

Because people of color, especially black people were not given the roles because the color of their skin, even if they are great at the role.

Theres this poem called, Dreams Deferred. One's dream can be deferred due to others racist/sexist views or micro-agressions towards her blackness and womanhood.

 

[bununs alias]

If you need money Pico i told you already all you need to do is a cam show stop bullshiting

there is actually a huge community of people on twitch that pay women just to play videogames and say hi and just show a little cleavage. men is making bank also
http://kotaku.com/mystery-man-is-donating-thosands-in-cash-to-twitch-stre-1600073100

It's tough - as it should be, given the amount of competition - making any kind of money off streaming service Twitch. Unless, that is, your tip jar is paid a visit by a mysterious figure known only as "Amhai".

Over the past year or so, several streamers - many of them playing World of Warcraft - have been getting massive donations from this unknown viewer. We're talking thousands of dollars at a time.

Streamer Isaac "Azael" Cummings-Bentley tells The Daily Dot that he has received over $30,000 in donations from Amhai. His friend, Chance "Sodapoppin" Morris, got $50,000 (you can see one big donation of his below). Lea "LegendaryLea" May, who streams games of Hearthstone, has got over $22,000.

So, who is Amhai? Almost nobody knows. There's all kinds of speculation - like the obvious theory, given the name, that he's some kind of oil baron - but only a handful of people have had any real contact. Cummings-Bentley is one of them, and all he'll say is "I don't think he really wants anything said about him. He is just a very, very wealthy individual."

 

[Arya Tsaddiq]

Fight back against what?

She's not wrong but my point remains.

My daughter will be taught that nothing can stop her, nothing period. She will face obstacles and discrimination but fuck that shit...my baby can go as far as her dreams take her.

being black has a way of doing a number on dreams...

i dont expect you to understand now and you probably never will.

but thru your daughter, you will empathize.

I'm sure you're right, especially without a person in your corner encouraging you in the bleak times.

@Noir

I'm sorry if I came across as callous, it wasn't my intention.

What does this mean?

Now we don't have parents and families?

Racist Kat is back yall.....

 

[Colin$mackabi$h]

I have no aspirations, at least not concrete objectives. I'm honestly just waiting to die. I know how 'emo' that sounds but I'm not depressed or suicidal (in a very bad mood sometimes, often, yes, and I may occasionally be fully depressed in future but I could only see myself being 'suicidal' in very few circumstances, like suffering from some brutal terminal illness). I just don't care about 'my life' anymore. I would have preferred not to have been brought into existence. If I was a middle aged man and no one who would be really devastated by my death was still alive and I had no dependents (that would include foster and adopted companion animals, which I plan on having) and I had a painless, foolproof method of suicide I would take it.

My aspirations are to have fun and experience pleasure and, if I can, help the people I care about (some humans and all non-human animals) to do the same and be free from suffering. I have always wanted to write children's fantasy/science fiction novels, and I will try to (even though it's almost guaranteed that I won't be successful), but doing it for money and having to alter my work to meet publishing standards (the idea that my work will be rejected as objectively bad instead of just 'not what we're looking for' also bothers me) is partly why the idea doesn't excite me like it used to. Besides that I like being around non-human animals and helping them in some way. What prevents me from doing more for them is primarily wanting to avoid human contact (which is completely selfish and hypocritical). I would also like to have casual sex (or even just make out/cuddle) with attractive women, ideally, what's preventing me from doing that is lack of money (to hire an escort) and if I was open to sex with non-escorts than my restless leg syndrome (I can't even fantasize about being with women and some other things without triggering it), being unattractive (body and face) and I honestly just don't really trust, feel close to or relate to most women, the fantasy doesn't really match the reality. Besides that; writing children's fiction, caring for non-human animals and having sex with desirable women, there's not really anymore more I want than to listen to good music, read/reply to interesting topics online, eat tasty (healthy/vegan) food, watch movies/tv shows and read comic books and novels. I used to be really interested in ethics, and I wish there were more ethics oriented topics on the IC, but I've mostly lost interest in even that, it seems pointless, very few, if any, people have the same attitude and view that I do. What's preventing me from getting a go to job is pragmatic social anxiety (having a degree would make that easier but I can't regret not finishing university because there was no other way things could be). An online or at home job is a must, it would be impossible to explain how shockingly bad going out in public and working with people everyday was to psychologically normal people. I would rather off myself than go through that again.

The world is boring and harsh, to me. You can't wrestle with everyone and human beings are predictably wicked (I'm not claiming to be the sole exception or denying that many, many, maybe even most, people are beyond decent and kind but considering past experience I can only think of very few among the many decent I could be almost certain will never turn). The way that most people think people and things must be, their values, are so completely boring to me. It just doesn't excite me. I could never be who I want to be with most people and it's inhibiting. There's no magic in the world and most people seem OK with that, it's only like that because it's what they accept.

Shit reads like a suicide note

But if so dont u understand why this man feels this way? Have u ever been at your lowest in life?

We all felt something before that bring us pain because that is really the only thing we have in common but yet there is a divide and conquer type lifestyle.

The shit that is the norm these days is fucking ridiculous some dont question it they become it. This shit is a heart v.s. brain affair.

 

[2stepz_ahead]

You need sight to focus. All u see and all u dont want to see. We see whats real by understanding what we dont accept to be real (fantasy).

but what is considered to be real?

some people would not think my life is real.....but it is.

if you make excuses as to why other have then you limit yourself and your dreams and begin to see it as ....thats how they live rather than why cant i live like that or better.

fantasy is a dream thats outta reach, because you dont see yourself obtaining it.. your

reality is what you settle for.

a goal is what you strive to obtain and surpass. its your target.

if you dont have dreams or goals, why do you continue to exist? why are you here?

 

[bununs alias]

the funny thing is...pico could prolly make a whole lot. she has the personality type for it...

this jackass literally is caking from videogames all day, here is his biggest donations. i find him after worldstar posted his video of him losing 5,000 from playing online blackjack
http://www.worldstarhiphop.com/videos/video.php?v=wshh1T06TwsS826sd8mY

The Hall of Fame

$10,000+

Amhai: $50,000,

Obaid: $35,000,

FlexidreST: $11,000

2,000+

Conradmanjam - $6000, Marwan: $5,000, Afnohu: $4,028, Edge275: $3,750, Intenseburn: $2,750, Brevlo: $2,625, Cleoman: $2,535, Althani199: $2,450, Tupac The Great: $2,350, Matavor: $2,277, Yoyo77ssx: $2050, Kimdah: $2,000

1,000+

Riivio: $1,850, Blitterz: $1,500, Blessemex: $1,500, Rasmusweber: $1,633, TwistyBro: $1,581, Caerlsson: $1,443, BalleProductionsYT: $1,250, Benol001: $1,107, Xelavut: $1,050, Sickk3nt: $1,035.69, Infamous: $1,000, Spectre1887: $1,005, Hookaloof: $1,001, Philip: $1,000, Jumkim: $1,000, Zayzootv: $,1000, Nekks: $1,000, Matavor: $1,000

 

[2stepz_ahead]

I have no aspirations, at least not concrete objectives. I'm honestly just waiting to die. I know how 'emo' that sounds but I'm not depressed or suicidal (in a very bad mood sometimes, often, yes, and I may occasionally be fully depressed in future but I could only see myself being 'suicidal' in very few circumstances, like suffering from some brutal terminal illness). I just don't care about 'my life' anymore. I would have preferred not to have been brought into existence. If I was a middle aged man and no one who would be really devastated by my death was still alive and I had no dependents (that would include foster and adopted companion animals, which I plan on having) and I had a painless, foolproof method of suicide I would take it.

My aspirations are to have fun and experience pleasure and, if I can, help the people I care about (some humans and all non-human animals) to do the same and be free from suffering. I have always wanted to write children's fantasy/science fiction novels, and I will try to (even though it's almost guaranteed that I won't be successful), but doing it for money and having to alter my work to meet publishing standards (the idea that my work will be rejected as objectively bad instead of just 'not what we're looking for' also bothers me) is partly why the idea doesn't excite me like it used to. Besides that I like being around non-human animals and helping them in some way. What prevents me from doing more for them is primarily wanting to avoid human contact (which is completely selfish and hypocritical). I would also like to have casual sex (or even just make out/cuddle) with attractive women, ideally, what's preventing me from doing that is lack of money (to hire an escort) and if I was open to sex with non-escorts than my restless leg syndrome (I can't even fantasize about being with women and some other things without triggering it), being unattractive (body and face) and I honestly just don't really trust, feel close to or relate to most women, the fantasy doesn't really match the reality. Besides that; writing children's fiction, caring for non-human animals and having sex with desirable women, there's not really anymore more I want than to listen to good music, read/reply to interesting topics online, eat tasty (healthy/vegan) food, watch movies/tv shows and read comic books and novels. I used to be really interested in ethics, and I wish there were more ethics oriented topics on the IC, but I've mostly lost interest in even that, it seems pointless, very few, if any, people have the same attitude and view that I do. What's preventing me from getting a go to job is pragmatic social anxiety (having a degree would make that easier but I can't regret not finishing university because there was no other way things could be). An online or at home job is a must, it would be impossible to explain how shockingly bad going out in public and working with people everyday was to psychologically normal people. I would rather off myself than go through that again.

The world is boring and harsh, to me. You can't wrestle with everyone and human beings are predictably wicked (I'm not claiming to be the sole exception or denying that many, many, maybe even most, people are beyond decent and kind but considering past experience I can only think of very few among the many decent I could be almost certain will never turn). The way that most people think people and things must be, their values, are so completely boring to me. It just doesn't excite me. I could never be who I want to be with most people and it's inhibiting. There's no magic in the world and most people seem OK with that, it's only like that because it's what they accept.

Shit reads like a suicide note

But if so dont u understand why this man feels this way? Have u ever been at your lowest in life?

We all felt something before that bring us pain because that is really the only thing we have in common but yet there is a divide and conquer type lifestyle.

The shit that is the norm these days is fucking ridiculous some dont question it they become it. This shit is a heart v.s. brain affair.

everyone has had a low point......

shit everyone either feel off a bike or damn near drowned when swimming.

if you still here after that low point or what you feel is you lowest point...

honestly STFU. you made it past the roughest point according to what you said your life has been up to that point.

you have no where to go but up.

niggas take what i say a been tough and not understanding...blah blah blah.....

take the positive from my words.

 

[Ajackson17]

Getting black folk to work together for the benefit of ourselves.

Amerikkka is stopping me. I am a black male. Cant stress this enough.

So why didn't it stop JayZ, or Barack Obama, or Tyler Perry?

I hear ya, but not good enough.

This point is soooo fucking disgusting for you to make, when you have been on a black dominated hip hop website for years, where you are able to view first hand and gain understanding of the black plight in the united states and internationally.

Anomalous situations do no create the narrative for the norm. So, for you to point out: Jay-Z, President Barack Obama, or Tyler Perry as the anchors of black Americans and Pan-Africans to strive to be like is the white privilege and white invisible cloak that many black people on this board speak about daily.

These examples are not the norm, when the United States of America is treating it's black citizens as second-class.

Black Americans are under a new Jim Crow system, where Black Codes are being used daily against Black Americans and immigrants, who are perceived black due to their skin color, which creates a black racial orentation for them, despite their culture.

Yes, their is a thing such as personal responsibility; however, microagressions ( which you have just displayed on here. JUST NOW!) and macroagression of racism hinders many black amercians and other people of color to strive forward in life.

As a mother, you daughter will be looked at and considered black. So, for you to exercise this ignorance shows that you believe in and engage in the colorblind, multicultural utopia and slient erasure of blackness. You seriously need to check your white privilege and whiteness that contiously allows you to make these egregious comments based on race.

Because you daughter will become extremely conscious of race, blackness, being a black woman, colorism,intra-prejudice/racism, tragic mulatto plight, racial inequality, and subtle and overt racism every single day.

To be black, one will be full of anger and rage of the inequality and treatment based off of their skin color.

You are too old to be this ignorant. Especially, when you engage in interracial/intercultural relationships with black men.

My Queen has spoken!

 

[Colin$mackabi$h]

You need sight to focus. All u see and all u dont want to see. We see whats real by understanding what we dont accept to be real (fantasy).

but what is considered to be real?

some people would not think my life is real.....but it is.

if you make excuses as to why other have then you limit yourself and your dreams and begin to see it as ....thats how they live rather than why cant i live like that or better.

fantasy is a dream thats outta reach, because you dont see yourself obtaining it.. your

reality is what you settle for.

a goal is what you strive to obtain and surpass. its your target.

if you dont have dreams or goals, why do you continue to exist? why are you here?

I cant speak for u, my power in the moment is to tell u how I see things, all that exists now.

Maybe dreams/nightmares start in the head and only ends when the heart take over.. If That Was The Case Would We Not Have To See What Triggers Our Minds And Desires?

 

[bununs alias]

id simp noir, but i seen she be puttin niggas on blast on donkey with the screenshots

 

[Ajackson17]

If whites aint making the Jay z success but say stupid shit like what kat said I'll ask them why aren't you on Bill Gates and other wealthy whites level?

 

[Jabu_Rule]

I have no aspirations, at least not concrete objectives. I'm honestly just waiting to die. I know how 'emo' that sounds but I'm not depressed or suicidal (in a very bad mood sometimes, often, yes, and I may occasionally be fully depressed in future but I could only see myself being 'suicidal' in very few circumstances, like suffering from some brutal terminal illness). I just don't care about 'my life' anymore. I would have preferred not to have been brought into existence. If I was a middle aged man and no one who would be really devastated by my death was still alive and I had no dependents (that would include foster and adopted companion animals, which I plan on having) and I had a painless, foolproof method of suicide I would take it.

My aspirations are to have fun and experience pleasure and, if I can, help the people I care about (some humans and all non-human animals) to do the same and be free from suffering. I have always wanted to write children's fantasy/science fiction novels, and I will try to (even though it's almost guaranteed that I won't be successful), but doing it for money and having to alter my work to meet publishing standards (the idea that my work will be rejected as objectively bad instead of just 'not what we're looking for' also bothers me) is partly why the idea doesn't excite me like it used to. Besides that I like being around non-human animals and helping them in some way. What prevents me from doing more for them is primarily wanting to avoid human contact (which is completely selfish and hypocritical). I would also like to have casual sex (or even just make out/cuddle) with attractive women, ideally, what's preventing me from doing that is lack of money (to hire an escort) and if I was open to sex with non-escorts than my restless leg syndrome (I can't even fantasize about being with women and some other things without triggering it), being unattractive (body and face) and I honestly just don't really trust, feel close to or relate to most women, the fantasy doesn't really match the reality. Besides that; writing children's fiction, caring for non-human animals and having sex with desirable women, there's not really anymore more I want than to listen to good music, read/reply to interesting topics online, eat tasty (healthy/vegan) food, watch movies/tv shows and read comic books and novels. I used to be really interested in ethics, and I wish there were more ethics oriented topics on the IC, but I've mostly lost interest in even that, it seems pointless, very few, if any, people have the same attitude and view that I do. What's preventing me from getting a go to job is pragmatic social anxiety (having a degree would make that easier but I can't regret not finishing university because there was no other way things could be). An online or at home job is a must, it would be impossible to explain how shockingly bad going out in public and working with people everyday was to psychologically normal people. I would rather off myself than go through that again.

The world is boring and harsh, to me. You can't wrestle with everyone and human beings are predictably wicked (I'm not claiming to be the sole exception or denying that many, many, maybe even most, people are beyond decent and kind but considering past experience I can only think of very few among the many decent I could be almost certain will never turn). The way that most people think people and things must be, their values, are so completely boring to me. It just doesn't excite me. I could never be who I want to be with most people and it's inhibiting. There's no magic in the world and most people seem OK with that, it's only like that because it's what they accept.

Hypoxia bro. That's your way out. A completely euphoric death.

 

[Kat]

If whites aint making the Jay z success but say stupid shit like what kat said I'll ask them why aren't you on Bill Gates and other wealthy whites level?

Because I don't desire to do what it takes to get on that level.

I used well known examples, but you really don't need to leave the IC to see examples of my intended point.

You are unstoppable, believe that.

 

[jee504]

Thread took a turn for the worse as usual

 

[_Goldie_]

If whites aint making the Jay z success but say stupid shit like what kat said I'll ask them why aren't you on Bill Gates and other wealthy whites level?

Because I don't desire to do what it takes to get on that level.

I used well known examples, but you really don't need to leave the IC to see examples of my intended point.

You are unstoppable, believe that.

Says the bitch that rides the bus, gtfoh b

 

[CHICAGO_BREED]

I wanna work the industry and gain as much knowledge FIRST before I venture off and do my own thing

 

[VIBE]

Amerikkka is stopping me. I am a black male. Cant stress this enough.

So why didn't it stop JayZ, or Barack Obama, or Tyler Perry?

I hear ya, but not good enough.

Amerikkka is stopping me. I am a black male. Cant stress this enough.

So why didn't it stop JayZ, or Barack Obama, or Tyler Perry?

I hear ya, but not good enough.

This is such a 'white' response

I guess it is coming from a white person.

America might make things difficult for a black man/woman but it is not stopping you, there are plenty of examples that prove otherwise.

Maybe it's just you.