TonyDubbz;7669391 said:
Yea man i remember that shit. Bruh didnt u get ur girl pregnant and then decide u aint wanna be wit her no more cause she was fat and lazy or some shit like that?
Yall really trying to make relive the whole damn year Lmao. Alright then one last titan graph for 2014. I'm sick right now so sorry for misspellings and if it doesnt make sense.
No I didn't get her pregnant(thank the gods above). Her dumbass thought that even though she was on the pill if I went raw and busted in her she would automatically be pregnant, and ny dumbass went along with it because I was finally getting pussy (we both were virgins before we met) and honestly she was my first love. Whenever we got caught up in the moment and we(more specifically her) said fuck a condom she freaked out till she got her period. I never once came inside her raw, I guess because she saw my life wasn't too great or just didn't want to risk it.
We had been going out for little more than a year(Oct 2012- Dec 2013). During a date a day or two before Christmas of 2013 I asked her what was up, she had been distancing herself for me to the point I felt like she was fucking someone else or just with me out of pity. Let me back track to the military thing though first
My mother just moved to Alaska that spring/summer and while I am living with my grandma I was effectively by myself apart from my girlfriend. I talked it over with my girl because she became my confidant at that point and agreed it would be good for me to join up. I needed the money and wanted to get an apartment close to her. After going to the recruiter I spent the next three or four months getting in shape. Which was good because it took forever. My girl was proud of me my mom was too even though she never wanted me to join. As you guys know it didn't work out.
Back to the girl. She helped me stay sane after that. The recruiter told me I could wait till October of 2013 or go to cnm(community college here). I chose to wait because honestly I was depressed and the girl stuck with me through that. Fast forward to October of this year and it was our anniversary. We went out and I noticed something was up then.
Now skipping back to December(or forward I guess) it was a night or two before Christmas and I took her out to get her presents. I got a job at ups at that time and had money to actually get shit for once. She wanted makeup and I already got her two presents before but I felt like ballin out and wanted to try and salvage what we had.show her I was actually picking myself up again after the whole military debacle. I was planning on going to cnm in the summer and try for the military again.
As I said I asked her what was up and all that other simp shit trying to get her to see if she still loved me and all that. In truth I should of taken the beautiful @Pico 's advice and broke it off earlier with the girl during a big pregnancy scare. But I loved that girl, she stayed with me at what I thought at that time was my lowest. So I proceeded to the conversation and we talked at a fucking panda express lol. When i took her way the hell back to the other side of town where house was we talked.
I forgot to mention we fucked at mine after I pissed her off by taking a different route to her house to pick her up. Anyways, she basically told me she wanted to break up with what I suspect were crocodile tears in her eyes. And we broke up on new years eve. In truth Thats when EVERYTHING went to hell. Ups was short changing me in my check and I quit. I was going to cnm at that time and was beginning to look for another job trying to stay busy. Then my car broke down, and I couldnt go more than a few blocks away from my crib. So I stopped going to cnm. Couldn't get groceries that much had/have no real income, got skinny, got real depressed again; to the point of contemplating suicide. By the late spring of 2014 I wasnt even thinking bout my ex, but how I fucked everything up. I've always hated myself and usually beat myself for mistakes I made years ago, but this was different. I gave up.
