If you are for real, I feel for you @supergangster You remind me of dukie from the wire, hate see a kid all suicidal. Keep working out and focusing on getting your mind right. You've mentioned suicide more than a couple times on here, and if that's really truly how you feel then get help. Go to a depression forum, there are plenty out there. And for the love of God, if you depressed stop listening to prodigy. That kill kill murder murder shit will just make you more depressed.
You are a nigga in Sweden take advantage of that shit. Go and get your mind right and take over a city there. There can't be but a few niggas in sweden. You should be the man over there with all them swedish chicks, plus I know they ain't got no swag. You dont either though, but they don't know that!!! So you can fake it.
Stop walking around all depressed telling ppl all your problems when you don't even know em, that makes you seem like a freak. Get some confidence kid.
But if you trolling, gtfoh