I dont make many threads, but here it goes.
So me and my girl been together for a very long time. It wasnt your tradional relationship, but it worked for us. What we had was great. 2 young people that loved each other for who they were, no ulterior motives.
I moved around a lot in our relationship, she held me down. I had lots of money at one point, she held me down. I lost money in business, she paid my bills, treated me the same, and held me the fuck down.
The dynamics of our relationship was always I would get mad at shit, and she will remain quiet. I would say some wild insensitive shit to her, she would take it.
Now im not making excuses. I did some real childish shit. Extemely insensitive, but, she held me down.
Years go by, we grow more mature. Both of us do. She wants to take the next step. I always felt like I wasnt ready. Eventually, i stop chasing business, get my ass back to school, finish, get a good stable job. Key word is stable. Im making great money now, but I was making a lot more in retail, but shit never made me feel stable enough, retail is some here today gone tomorrow shit. Anyway, i get this job, feel confident in my future, and I propose. She happy as fuck.
First month goes by, she mad happy. Second month, it all goes down.
We have a childish ass argument, and what I do? Say some wild insensitive shit. We dont talk for a few days. Mind you, the argument aint about shit, and mind you, i admit, i act real childish.
A few days go by, i reach out. And man, for the first time, she acts cold. I was like wtf. She starts saying she needs time and wants to take a break.
I was like wtf? A break? We have a wedding in less then a year, wtf you mean a break?
And so, for the first time, i did some shit out of character. I gave chase. Went to her, told her i didnt want a break, and i wanted to work it out. She blamed me. I accepted blame. She said she wasnt sure she wanted marry me, i said yo ill wait. Keep this part in mind.
So my mindstate was, we are engaged now, i spent all this fucking money, so i gotta put in work.
So here I am, for the first time in our relationship, im chasing her. Now, the more I chase, the colder she gets. I know the game yall, but im heavily invested, so my pride keeps getting crushed, but i keep chasing, she keeps getting further away.
Now, this is the hilarious part. Issue was me being insensitive right? So here I am, for the first time going the fuck out of my way. She finally got what she wants? Her man finally chasing her. But what keeps happening? She keeps getting colder and colder.
Eventually, about a month goes by. I cant take it no more. We decide to not talk for a while. 2 weeks go by, i hit her up. We talk. So i ask like yo, whats the deal? She says she likes the freedom she had and she wants to keep it and doesnt think she wants to get married. At that point i had enough man.
I revert back to the old me. Say some cold insensitive shit, told her like "getting engaged to you was the biggest mistake i ever made, and i regret it everyday" i also told her it was over, and that was it. Broke off the engagement.
Now, that was 3 days ago. Yesterday she calls me crying. Begging me to talk to her. Im like nah, stop texting me. Today, she texting me all morning.
So there you have it fellas. For weeks I made her felt loved and she grew distant from me. Soon as I told her I didnt love her and that I was done with her and this relationship, and told her some off the wall insensitive shit, she begging for me back.
So yea, back to the thread title, these bitches dont wanna be loved. Shout out to Patrice O Neal when he said the relationship is best when you love me and I just like you.
