God doesn't punish or test people with such things. this is the result of imperfection and living in satans world. out of love Jehovah is giving us the chance of eternal life and happiness, we just have to take it.
we don't rely on one preacher so the truth is never lost through one person but I agree praying for wisdom is one of the best things you can do.... and thanks
right now its all about knowing the true Bible teachings and principals and how to apply them to life so I still got a ways to go.
I can say though so far it gave me the ability to speak on stage with absolutely no nervousness. never thought that would be possible.
oh im far from brain washed. I ask myself is it worth it especially since im restricting myself from things when I barely did much in the first place. im just making a definite choice instead of being on the fence
144,000 are just those going into heaven. the others who Jehovah resurrects will enjoy eternal life on paradise earth so if im not anointed I hope to be in paradise